....to-do's

I think I have a very small to-do-list. Not that I don't have dreams, I just have a small list of things I actually want to "become."

I want to live in purity,
I want to eat a balanced diet and exercise regularly,
I want to have time for friends, family, and God,
I want to fall in love with with my work, with the Scriptures, and love what is right,
I want to be on a regular sleeping schedule (more of a short term goal, haha),
I want to develop my character in a structural way,
I want to create time for music and drinking tea

Really, I bet if everyone thinks about it, their to-do-list is a lot shorter than they think. I have a lot of selfish desired pursuits (like being an author and prolific artist) but the paths of those pursuits are only made known to one who has cultivated his or her character, which really is what my list is about: being more balanced as an individual, making my character known (rather than my wacky dare-devilish tendencies), and becoming one that others can lean on.

..the hard truth

personal growth is the deepening of one's character... right, well, if we take all things as a means to deepen our character and a chance to deepen (enrich) the character of those we interact with, how much better will we be as friends... This isn't exactly my point; I would like to say that I am learning to keep God first in my relationships and use my character as a means to be an encouragement to friends (cuz life is hard enough as it is). Sometimes we have to overlook unfulfilled self-interest and act as servants (not just with people but with things like work).

I'm really starting to realize how important it is to be honest. People aren't the same and people really truly struggle. People can help you grow and I am starting to allow the things around me to not only facilitate growth, but to help affirm my identity. One of my biggest struggles is being honest; it's bending the truth/embellishing and it's holding back key information (thus changing the meaning of what I'm saying). That's me. It's my struggle and it;s part of the wonderful mess that is me. However, the thing is, I'm moving forward (something taking two steps back to advance one lol).